I debated about sharing my last post and allowing myself to be so openly vulnerable. Ultimately, I decided to share my true, honest feelings because I remembered that the blogs that I enjoy reading the most are the ones that revealed the messy, honest stories of life.
And, I remembered, how at 17, when I discovered Sabrina Ward Harrison‘s book Spilling Open, I was so grateful that her visual journals had been published and to read about another woman’s insecurities.
So I chose to be brave and share my struggle with purpose and enough. It was actually this sharing, letting others know and finding out that I am not alone ( I enjoyed the link left in the comments section about Preventing Goal Burn Out.) in those thoughts that helped me move past them. Sharing on my blog got me to work through the feelings I was having and get them out of my head. Now there is room for better things.
Sharing also prompted others to speak up. One friend shared that she viewed me as such a successful and accomplished person, while another told me I had “a drive that keeps you pursuing your dreams and that doesn’t come along very often.” It can be eye opening to compare the way we view ourselves against the way the world views us. We are truly our own worst critic. So why then, do we chose to listen to that one voice (our own), over all of the others?
Here’s to a year of remembering the successful driven person I am capable of being. Thank you to everyone for their continued support, appraisal and love.
I beat the resistance and spent some much needed and enjoyed time in my studio yesterday. I’ll be sharing my accomplishments soon.